Friday, April 11, 2008

shopping time!

it's back!
all 50 gloriously eye candy eligible male meat on parade to be salivated over
ngeeeeee~

if other average Joes walking down the streets think this is degrading and self esteem destroyer, think again the next time u pick up the FHM issue with the list of hot looking women

time to pay back ladies
drools n giggles n pores to ur heart content here
let me know ur pick

p/s: too bad our "astronaut" is no longer eligible, if not i bet he'll be one of the them. bet ya he'll snag the title too

Thursday, April 10, 2008

what happened to spring?

i was ecstatic yesterday walking home from school
the green young shoots of grass start peeking out
n the forecast says it's gonna be 20 degrees this weekend
then i woke up to this



OMFG!
i can't believe that MUCH? of snow at this TIME? of the year
*shake heads*
if one thing Canada's weather have in common with we women is our unpredictable mood swings in a blink of an eye

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

green hulk

can't sleep til 4 last nite
despite lights out at 1130 n eyes shut closed
my mind won't shut down, generating possible scenarios of next morning com skill
oooohh how i always dreaded it

then i go in n guess wat i had to deal with?
a very CUTE angry man
oh ok a very cute ANGRY man
u know the type dat won't open up?
tanye pat ploh patah jwb setengah patah kinda patient?
horrible k?
god forbids if u ask the wrong question silap2 aribln u get scolded back
it makes the whole interview painfully hard n awkward
as if not enuf wit me who find it hard to build rappot n make communication a mesra one

i ask why he was here
he stated why n i proceed asking the standard questions trying to come up with differential diagnosis but it was dry n bland like the gravy at ikea
my heart was screaming at me to just run out but i stay n carefully prodded
eheh, not so carefully or subtle when i run out of questions to ask n vomited
"ur angry, why r u so angry?"
NOT a good choice of words
but then surprisingly, it makes the rest of the session better

the fake patient even commented dat i did great in handling this kinda of pain-in-da-ass patient
n my preceptor also surprised on how i didn't back down n manage to address the patient's emotional struggle
oh well, it's not like i can just run out of the room crying like dat can i?

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

i bite

currently feeling...

...mood swings yg mcm sial

refraining self from dealing with other homo sapiens

aaaahhh

the wonderful blessings of being the one with ovaries n uterus

Sunday, April 06, 2008

spring BBQ fun!

tired.smelly.full
just gonna let the pics speaks for the fun we had BBQ-ing

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BBQ-ing

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the chicken
*drools*

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homemade burgers n sausages
*double drools*

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special menu of da day: chicken bones!

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the feast!

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poor nisa =(

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burning all da extra calories

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time for sum fun!

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ribena berry kids

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flying without wings~

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up up n away SuperBulat

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njoying the sun

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adeih, patah la pinggang gue~

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~chiquititas~

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nisa's failed attempt making dry grass shower

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spring jump!

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gabby is enjoying himself
*ok dats sounds awfully wrong eheh*

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get in da car ppl! we're going home~

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THE END

Saturday, April 05, 2008

what went wrong, sufiah?

this news on Sufiah Farooq is a bit old i know but a few things come across my mind reading it dat i have to pen it down

almost everyone know the story of this gifted child who made it into Oxford at tender age of 13. it is sad to see how she turn out to be like this today but stories of child prodigy taking the unseemingly path is not a new news in itself. ever heard of Asia Carrera? or closer to home, the boy genius who adopted by Prof Ungku Aziz but now is flipping roti canai for living. i am no genius myself but one thing i can understand is they been put under a lot of pressure by ppl who doesn't even know them to perform well in their life. to use their gift to benefit others. ever wonder about what they want?

if u were to dig deeper into sufiah past, u'll find what seems to me a ridiculous ideology her parents esp her father imposed on her n her siblings. yes, it's good to develop your child potential to its max but with all that rules n confines? no wonder she acted so rebellious as she did. well, all of us who is average being at some point of our life, mostly during our teenage years went thru this rebellion stage. we do as we please. we do things to make our parents feel bad. the worst they feel about our action, the better. maybe what sufiah is going thru here is her own version of rebellion phase. this is not her first time doing something out of expected, she went mia a couple yrs back, abandoning her studies just like dat

sure one can argue of all the ways to make a decent living, why she choose this path? she can use her gift/curse but she decided not to. why? dats the question only sufiah and sufiah alone can answer. and to say she didn't know wat she's doing is wrong, she was brought up with a good Islamic teaching so i really can't fathom her decision but then again, i'm not in her shoes.

what i don't understand here has nothing to do with her. i dun understand why Malaysian government is so eager wanting to help her. wat's with all this Safe Sufiah prog n all? she is not even a Malaysian by birth or by any means. the only link she has is her mother who went to study oversea (is it under scholarship?) n nvr return n probably no longer a citizen of Malaysia. i dun even see the need to give her scholarship in the first place. it's not like she gonna come back to Malaysia n gave back to our nation other than the mere mention of her mother birthplace. not dat i'm saying she doesn't deserve it but there is more than Malaysian gov already can handle in their own backyard. why not focus there first before reaching out for this half Malaysian population who doesn't even set a foot on Malaysia soil until the awarding of scholarship (itu pon sekali tu jer). if it were up to me, i wouldn't even acknowledge her as a Malay. she was not born a Malay n never raised as one, so when ppl labelled her as a Muslim Malay, for me dat is a one big wrong label. if the government said they are doing it because she is a Muslim, then why aren't other Islamic country doing the same? then again, look at our own backyard, is government doing anything to help Malay Muslim girls whose in the same situation as her?

Friday, April 04, 2008

Thursday, April 03, 2008

this is how i used to feel with you




-You're in my arms-
And all the world is calm-The music playing on for only two-So close together-And when I'm with you-So close to feeling alive-As life goes by -Romantic dreams will start-So I bid mine goodbye and never knew-So close was waiting, waiting here with you-And now forever I know-All that I wanted to hold you-So close-So close to reaching that famous happy end-Almost believing this was not pretend-And now you're beside me and look how far we've come-So far we are so close-How could I face the faceless days-If I should lose you now?-We're so close-To reaching that famous happy end-Almost believing this was not pretend-Let's go on dreaming for we know we are-So close-So close-And still so far-

but u don't know dat, do u?
i wish u do
*sighhhhhhh*


p/s: listen carefully at 2:01 n u'll hear mcdreamy sang for her, dat's da sweetest thing ever! *melting*

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

*jumping up and down*

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i'm feeling good~

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oh yess i am~

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yeah baby, feeling good huh?!

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nothing spells like a big S to finally confirm
I'M COMING HOME THIS SUMMER!!!!

yeap!
i PASS my *literally* heart stopper Course III exam!!!
this means all my summer plans gonna go accordingly
lalalalalalalalalalalala
saya sangat suka hati~

now i just have to pass my HPOP final n my med skill exam n Course IV certifying so dat i dun have to cut short my holiday
whoaaaaa~
dat's a BIG worklad

but for now ppl, i am gonna be breathing Malaysia's air this coming June!
i'm gonna eat all those delicious foods n go shopping n yeah, spend time wit moi famili n frens
uuuuuuu inda sabar jua mau pulang!!!!
ngeeeeeeee~

p/s: to dear nanaIn, i lap u so much la lalinks! thanks for the thoughtful entry on me n ur prayers! i bloody pass! can u believe it?! so nnt boley la ronggeng2 yeah!

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

uncertainties

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".......My point is that whoever said 'What you don't know can’t hurt you,' was a complete and total moron. Because for most people I know, not knowing is the worst feeling in the world."
-meredith-

TRUE
soooo freakingly true